Today is a Blahhhhhhhhh day

I'm having a rotten day today. Had to come home at Lunchtime today to have a meeting with my roofer, who replaced my roof a year ago and we have had nothing but leaks since then. This is really annoying as my house is over 100 years old, the roof on the house was the original and never leaked once. Now we have a huge problem with damp that has run through three potentially four areas of the house and each of these rooms to have to be stripped right back to the bare brick, lintels will have to be replaced as well as joists and the whole areas will have to be treated and replastered and then re-decorated, but none of this can happen till the leak has been fixed properly. The worst thing though, is that I will end up losing decorative architrave that will be impossible to replace as its no longer made, so will have to get a specialist in to remould it completely, so we now face a gruelling battle with builders, insurance companies and a hell of a mess to live in whilst it gets sorted, plus some massive bills. I am so sick of this house, we have spent the last two summers working our butts off in it, summer of 04 was spent completely remodeling the garden, which was a huge task and took about 12 weeks to complete, summer of 05 was spent doing the house and now this. I swear to god, when this work is finished I am selling this house, no matter what his lordship says, I've had enough, no longer love it like I first did when I first walked into it, instead I hate it with every bone in my body.

To top it all off I saw my best friend today that I have not seen or heard of for weeks, I was going up my drive and she was driving past, she never even waved or anything and I know she saw me. I am so upset, she has been my best friend since I moved to Scotland, we have shared so many things and secrets that would make your hair curl, but I feel like I'm suddenly of no use to her, I have covered for her so much in the past and I think I should have said no, because now I feel like I have been used and it really hurts. I called her a few weeks ago to say hi, but she was short with me, or at least that was how it felt, so I just said, if she needed a friend I was there for her, and left it at that, I even dropped her a email and she has not responded, but do you know something, I could really bloody use a friend at the moment and I don't see her offering her services. Which again explains why I feel like I've been used.

But do you know what, I still miss her, she was my best friend and I don't think its right that she takes that friendship away without even telling me.

Ok, I've now thoughly depressed myself even more than I was before, so I'm gonna go to bed and find my cheery self again and I'll be back tomorrow, hopefully in a better frame of mind.

Take care of yourselves. mwahahahahahaha